Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

4/10/2025

Hi Mom!

 The blog is back. Idc idc.

I've been upping my journaling game the last couple of months, but there's something about writing for an imagined someone out there. Typically I write on here like my mom is the person who's reading me. Now my mom is dead. 

When she was dying, I spent a lot of time laying (lying? She would known which was right.) in her bed with her.  And she spent a lot of time on her iPad. I learned that she had a habit of opening Instagram, going to my profile, and scrolling through my grid, stopping to (re-)read all the comments. I also learned that my blog was her homepage. She loved me so much and just delighted in the shit I put on the Internet. 

I don't know what happens when we die, but I do know that if it's at all possible for some essence of my mom to be reading this post, it's happening. Hi Mom! I'm going to start writing stuff here again. I am. Plz help if u can.

1/30/2017

This is a real-life dystopian novel.

Instead of going to the Women's March, I went on a long hike with Jody, which feels like a more authentic choice for me. I very much value the protests and protestors and protesting going on, but I always feel kinda funny with the chanting and things like such as. Like a poser. A one-on-one prison abolition strategizing session is a more me kind of civic engagement.

I was telling Jody how I think education needs a public intellectual to come out with a New Jim Crow typa book that raises the level of the national conversation on education the way Michelle Alexander did criminal justice, and Jody said I should write it then.

That kind of writing sounds SO HARD, so I don't know about that, but I do have a lot to say about schools and prisons and the ways they operate together, and I really want to get into the habit of working out my thinking again.

So what you're likely to see here, Mom, in the coming weeks is lot of "Here's what I did today" drivel just so that I can get into the habit of writing regularly. I'm not so depressed at the moment, and when I'm depressed seems to be when the juices are really flowing.

For instance, here's something that happened today: Just now as I was arriving home from Bible study, I had to leave the car on the street because our landlord (and Andrew's new BFF) is charging his electric car in the driveway. And I thought to myself, "Well this is a funny place to be in life."

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Lately, I'm really into engaging white people on Facebook.

I'm tired now, and going to pour another glass of wine, but what I'd like to write in the next couple of days is what I would like to say in response to my cousin's abrasive libertarian posts.

It takes a lot of practice, arguing with white people does, because they hit you with this "common sense" (read: status quo white supremacist thinking) that you have to unravel on the spot. 

6/14/2015

retreat

In November, I promised myself that when I felt well enough to enjoy it, I'd come back here, my favorite place.




All I want to do is read and write and, as harmlessly as possible, do whatever the fuck I feel like.

I went down to the thrift store to try to get some sunglasses. I lost mine. I didn't like any of them six dollars' worth (which seems kinda high to me), but I did like the way they'd organized their knick-knack department. (Jess.)



On the way, I saw this. Felt kinda pitifully ironic or ironically pitiful or something because I'm reading Missoula.



I also looked at their CD collection. Last week, at the thrift store in my own neighborhood (which is where I lost my sunglasses), the preponderance of Sarah McLachlan, Indigo Girls, and the Goo Goo Dolls made me think my neighbors must be full of White girls.  But the one today had practically the same collection! Now I'm gonna collect data in every thrift I go into.


1/29/2015

research project

As I've taken up writing on here anew, I've also been better about writing in my journal-thingie.  And that's a good thing because I bought it a couple of years ago, a fancy Moleskine one, and it'd been a damn shame that I wasn't filling it up and getting my money's worth.

I bought it when I started this research project about romantic relationships and what they mean for the self -- the past, present, and future self.  In particular, I was trying to figure out what they meant for my feminist self.  I interviewed my Mom, some of my best friends, a couple of women from church.  And I got some good stuff.  Originally, I had a plan for writing up the project, but ultimately, I guess I just came to some insights that I was needing and then that was done.

Seemingly abrupt shift: A few years ago, Rachel told me that a cantor had once described faith in God to her as "feeling lucky all the time."  That resonated with me, and I've thought about it a lot since.

I've been feeling tentatively better the last couple of weeks, and part of it, I'm sure, has been that I've felt really lucky several times.  It's made me feel held, protected.  I'd like to be better at nurturing that sense of gratitude as a way of staving off the intense despair that's marked the last several months for me.

I'm thinking about taking up another "research project."  This time, I'm thinking of asking folks ahead of time to come up with a list of ten or so things (people, experiences, whatever) in their lives that make them feel lucky.  (And nothing cliche.  You can't say "family" because, duh, boring.  Gotta be specific.)  A gratitude survey.  And then I want to chat with them about their list, take my dorky notes in my Moleskine.  Think about what they say so much.

First I'll write my own list to see what that's like, and then, I'll get started.




1/30/2010

big plans


Sydney and I went on a school-supply quest this morning. We need all these things for our students to learn to write. Except for the pretzels. The pretzels are for eating.



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"Oh! We could use one of those big containers like the ones they sell cheesy poofs in!"
"Yes!"
"That's a lot of cheesy poofs. Do you eat cheesy poofs? I do not eat cheesy poofs."
"I eat cheesy poofs."

1/02/2010

good taste

So I finally did my grading today. Ugh. So boring. But one interesting thing I noticed was that a significant majority of the students who chose to write about the Tupac Shakur text we read ("Keep Ya Head Up") focused their analysis on the same set of lines:

And since we all came from a woman
Got our name from a woman and our game from a woman
I wonder why we take from our women
Why we rape our women do we hate our women
I think it's time to kill for our women
Time to heal our women, be real to our women
And if we don't we'll have a race of babies
That will hate the ladies who make the babies
And since a man can't make one
He has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one

These happen to be my favorite lines from the song as well, but our class discussions really didn't go in their direction at all. Or at least not more that they did towards other parts of the song. Maybe it's because discourse on the need to respect women is sort of a common and comfortable thing in terms of what-we-write-for-school. Don't know. It could be the repeated long "a" sound followed by the repeated "woman/en" that drew them all in. That's what does it for me anyway.

2/28/2009

I said "shit" one time! It was an accident!

A direct quote from some student writing I'm grading. He argues that profanity should be taught in foreign language classes:
But even teachers and adults (specifically my English teacher) have slipped a 'four letter word' here and there.
Fuck.

2/21/2009

"Handwriting is a historical blip in the long history of writing technologies"

I'm just getting around to online-bookmarking the websites and pages I've saved in my "when i get a chance" file, which is how I came across this article for Good magazine called "Stop Teaching Handwriting" by Anne Trubek.

I've excerpted much of the article below, because I really super like her idea. Plus, the history of writing technologies she gives is very interesting, I think.

Let’s stop brutalizing our kids with years of drills on the proper formation of a cursive capital “S”—handwriting is a historical blip in the long history of writing technologies, and it’s time to consign to the trash heap this artificial way of making letters, along with clay tablets, smoke signals, and other arcane technologies.

Many will find this argument hard to swallow because we cling to handwriting out of a romantic sense that script expresses identity. But only since the invention of the printing press has handwriting been considered a mark of self expression. Medieval monks first worried that the invention of printing would be the ruin of books, as presses were more idiosyncratic and prone to human error than manuscripts produced in scriptoriums. And the monks never conceived of handwriting as a sign of identity: For them, script was formulaic, not self-expressive. That concept did not appear until the early 18th century. Still later came the notion that personality and individuality could be deduced by analyzing handwriting. All the while, print became widely available, and handwriting lost its primacy as a vehicle of mass communication.
Huh. Makes sense.
The typewriter took handwriting down another notch. Henry James took up the then-new writing machine in the 1880s, most likely because he, like my son, had poor handwriting. By the 1890’s, James was dictating all his novels to a secretary. And as novelists and businesses were putting down their pens, others started to valorize handwriting as somehow more pure and more authentic, infusing script with nostalgic romanticism. The philosopher Martin Heidegger was particularly guilty of this, writing in 1940 of the losses wrought by typewriters: "In handwriting the relation of Being to man, namely the word, is inscribed in beings themselves. …When writing was withdrawn from the origin of its essence, i.e. from the hand, and was transferred to the machine, a transformation occurred in the relation of Being to man."
This make me feel a lot less guilty for sometimes allowing my students, especially those with disabilities, to dictate parts of their writing assignments to me while I write or type for them.

The pattern doesn’t change: As writing technologies evolve, we romanticize the old and adapt to the new. This will happen with keyboards, too—some contemporary novelists have ceased using them already. Richard Powers uses voice-recognition software to compose everything, including his novels. “Except for brief moments of duress, I haven’t touched a keyboard for years,” he says. "No fingers were tortured in producing these words—or the last half a million words of my published fiction." Powers is wonderfully free of technological nostalgia: "Writing is the act of accepting the huge shortfall between the story in the mind and what hits the page. …For that, no interface will ever be clean or invisible enough for us to get the passage right," he says to his computer.
Thinking about it this way almost makes me want to send some of them to the learning center where we've got some voice-recognition software. For although I'm often alarmed at how poor their typing skills are, it's pretty liberating to think of teaching writing as teaching thinking. It makes it much more difficult, actually, but much more important-seeming.

I don't know, maybe that's a cop-out. Would allowing voice-recognition software for students for whom writing or typing presents a roadblock to creative production sacrifice their ability to "get by" in a world that, whether I like it or not, currently requires typing skills? I fear the unintended consequences that pushing my hippie ideals on my students.

2/18/2009

It's days like these that I love love love my job.

Here's a direct quote from a piece of student writing I collected yesterday.

"(Good news! Unicorns only have one emotion -- happiness!)"

It's from her manifesto. It calls for the legal requirement of all children fourteen and under to have unicorn caretakers. It's awesome.

2/12/2009

writing is SO hard

My students are writing manifestos this week, and they've been having a hard time wrapping their minds around the assignment. This morning, they were working on them in the computer lab, and I was walking around to offer support.

This one kid called me over and said, "Ms. Dahlke, I know how I want to do this, but I just don't know what I want to put in my introduction." And I was like, "Well, why don't you save your introduction for later. Maybe you'll know then?" He looked and me, sincerely surprised, and said, "You mean, I don't have to write my introduction first?" I didn't really say anything, just shook my head 'no.'

And he goes, "Ugh! I have so much to learn!"

1/28/2009

Writing really IS so hard!

It's rare to see a comedy, at least for me, about which I can sincerely say as the credits roll, "That was one of the best movies I've ever seen." But that I did say about Hamlet 2 the other day. Don't let the 2 fool you, as it did me; I generally turn my nose up at sequels. Or maybe do let it throw you, so that you'll have low expectations like I did, and then get your mind blown.

I couldn't find a clip of my favorite scene in isolation, but it's 5:03 - 5:45 of this one. I wouldn't recommend that you watch this whole clip because it doesn't work as well out of context. Just the 5:03 - 5:45 part.