Ron sometimes does this "That's bad --> That's good --> That's bad --> That's good" story thingie at the beginning of his teachings. (e.g. He fell off the roof; that's bad. There was a haystack below; that's good. There was a spike in the haystack; that's bad. He missed it; that's good.)
That's how my birthday was last week.
I've been feeling really low lately. I'm lonely, and I'm sad. I've been spending most of my non-working time at home in my room with the door closed, mostly sleeping. It's not a great way to deepen the relationships I've started since coming here. I didn't have anyone to do anything with, not anyone that wouldn't, though I may really like them, make me feel exhausted. I had a deep, loud cry that morning.
In the afternoon, I went on a gorgeous, hope restoring hike. As I started it, I got a promising email about a job I've applied for.
When I got home, some of the crappiness had settled back in, and I had to take a nap.
I got up and made an appointment to quick go over to the shiatsu place and get a massage. After that, I met Neil and Jarlath for a drink and a burger. I wore my favorite baggy-ass ripped jeans and a new shirt I found at Goodwill that's an exact copy of a shirt my old principal had that I was jealous of.
When I got home, the sad was back.
That's how my birthday was last week.
I've been feeling really low lately. I'm lonely, and I'm sad. I've been spending most of my non-working time at home in my room with the door closed, mostly sleeping. It's not a great way to deepen the relationships I've started since coming here. I didn't have anyone to do anything with, not anyone that wouldn't, though I may really like them, make me feel exhausted. I had a deep, loud cry that morning.
In the afternoon, I went on a gorgeous, hope restoring hike. As I started it, I got a promising email about a job I've applied for.
When I got home, some of the crappiness had settled back in, and I had to take a nap.
I got up and made an appointment to quick go over to the shiatsu place and get a massage. After that, I met Neil and Jarlath for a drink and a burger. I wore my favorite baggy-ass ripped jeans and a new shirt I found at Goodwill that's an exact copy of a shirt my old principal had that I was jealous of.
When I got home, the sad was back.