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6/12/2016

"DAAAG THAT'S DEEP"

We meet on Friday mornings to assess student work and plan the next week.  No class on Thursday meant no work for us to do, so we had to time to start the professional reading group we've been wanting to do.

First up: Pedagogy of the Oppressed.  We only got about five pages into the first chapter because we kept stopping to talk and look up words.

axiology: thinking about goodness, value

ontology: thinking about the nature of being

We came up with a whole bunch of examples from history and from our personal lives that helped us understand him better. It was awesome. We haven't at all gotten to a point where we can talk about what it means for our teaching, but we're all bringing our copies back next Friday so we can squeeze in some more reading time.

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I want to think more about how we did it.

We all sat around two tables pushed together, nine of us.  Each of us had our own copy, and a couple of paragraphs in, one guy got up to get us pens and highlighters. We read aloud slowly, taking turns without any order, and whenever necessary, we interrupted the reader to ask questions, make connections, or emote. Sometimes we went back to re-read a sentence or paragraph.

A few times, one or another of the guys would silently get up to go somewhere and silently come back to the table (e.g., bathroom, talk to someone outside, I don't know).  The person next to him would point to where we were, and he'd get back into it with us.

P kept reading ahead, highlighting animatedly as he read aloud the things he liked: "Oooh, 'The behavior of the oppressed is a prescribed behavior!'"  It was distracting to me and S, so every time he read aloud to himself, we would tell him to shut up and let us get there.  He didn't stop, though.

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The above is a pretty complete illustration of the academic literacy behaviors that the good teachers I know work at apprenticing their students into:
  • read with a pencil or pen or highlighter in hand
  • ask questions
  • make connections
  • note your responses to the text
  • stop and go back when you realize you've gotten lost
Together, we constructed comprehension and interpretation of the text, a text worthy of "group work."

We came to the table with an established camaraderie.  Our camaraderie is steeped in a shared commitment to education (others' and our own).  The text at hand is relevant to that commitment. We were each there by choice (and granted, we're all adults).  Each of us had the academic confidence to know that we could make at least some sense of this difficult text.  This was all effortless.

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At school, I was eventually able to create the conditions for students to read like this, but it was a lot of times really hard work for them and me getting ourselves there.  I've been wondering about that kind of thing for the last couple of years I've spent in prison education: Was it difficult because the behaviors are difficult?  Or do the conditions of "school" make it more difficult than they need to be?

I'm tripping on the extent to which context matters here.  We have so much more freedom in our classroom than a lot of teachers do -- particularly those who teach kids of color living in low-income neighborhoods where surveillance is pervasive.  Mandated curriculum, incessant testing, performance pay, etc.  We in a prison classroom, on the other hand, are free to play with our practice and our theories about how people learn (and others' theories -- like Freire's!).

Prison officials, from my experience, don't much shit whether or not our students earn their GEDs, so they don't interfere with what we do in our classroom.  Ostensibly, school officials do care about student learning, but in their caring, they really fuck it up bad.

In so many ways, school is just like prison, but not in this way, where we teachers have space to think. Barf.


11/17/2015

Patience.

I'm still banned from going inside.  Still waiting for an explanation.

And worse, because I'm waiting, our students and teachers are waiting.

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When my mom was here, she came down to the beach with me each morning.  The first morning, on the way down, I pointed out at which house you can start to hear the waves coming in.  The second day she pointed out the arrival of that sound, and on the last day, I said, "there they are." And Mom said, "They're always there."

I thought about that this morning as I sat in my spot and watched.

Kimo has been there practicing tai chi each morning for the last thirty-eight years.  Hasn't missed a day in THIRTY-EIGHT YEARS.  He'll be there.

Because it's the way my English major brain works, I started to construct a narrative, some kind of meaning analogous to what's been going on in my life.

It's dark when I get there every morning, and even though I know the sun will come up -- that soon it will be 7:00, and it will be daytime, and I will have to leave -- most mornings I still feel a half-second of panic about the darkness.  Just a half a second, but I always notice it and wonder about myself.

Blah blah blah the Biblical platitude about darkness and light.  Referenced probably too much, I still find solace:
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  The Word was with God in the beginning.  Through the Word all things were made; without the Word nothing was made that has been made.  In the Word was life, and that life was the light of all people.  The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness does not overcome it.
I used to write the above on the inside cover of every notebook I ever used for my lesson planning.  Public schools are pretty fucking "dark" places, and I wanted to have abiding faith that "the darkness does not overcome it."  The school-to-prison pipeline, in the end, does not win.

Then again, the whole thing should be complicated (, as we say in grad school.  "Let's complicate that. Let's unpack it.  Let's problematize that.").  (I know I link a lot here, but click on that one and watch.  Teaser: some Malcolm X!)

Point of all this: the dang sun comes and is going to come (and has always come) every morning.  Just wait.  It's going to happen.  Shitty shit can't last forever.  The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness does not overcome it.  Wait.  Be steadfast.

I haaaaaaate waiting.

Wait.  Be steadfast.  It's plainly predictable that things will get better.

I wanted to come home and write about it, so I left early.  As I was going I noticed that the first step, from the sand to the concrete stairs, seemed a lot taller than I remembered.  I dismissed the thought as another instance of my general failure to notice details, but then I noticed a whole bunch of really rounded, big-ass boulders up at the top of the beach that I know were not there before.




Science or God or whatever: my whole theory got effed up.  I did not expect that.  Never seen those there before.  Kimo had told me earlier that it had been really windy yesterday (when I was at home, sleeping in.)  I wonder what the ocean was doing at my beach.  It was doing something because the whole level of it was a foot lower, and there were all these beautiful rocks that had either washed up or been uncovered when the sand was washed away.

Wait.  Be steadfast.  It's plainly predictable that things will get better.  Be humble: don't rule out the possibility that things will get better than imagined -- or differently than imagined.  Know that you don't know.



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And in my life and my stupid banned-ness:

Wait.  Be steadfast.  It's plainly predictable that things will get better.  Be humble: don't rule out the possibility that things will get better than imagined -- or differently than imagined.  Know that you don't know. Quit being such an arrogant asshole.






8/03/2009

explanation

In a paper on Josh's coffee table I found this sentence:
In reality, we're only as free as our genes are pliable in the slosh of our developmental milieus.
AAAAAhahahahahahahaha.

11/28/2008

the epigraph to a book I bought today

When I dare to be powerful --
to use my strength in the service of my vision,
then it becomes less and less important
whether I am afraid.

Audre Lorde